I Am Not My Weight!

I don't know.  At the end of a week of feeling poorly I just wanted to reach out and say that!  There's no time like when you're sick to start to wish your body was well. You don't think to yourself when you're sick "I wish I was thin", no, you just want to be well.  You just want a body that works.  Wishing your body well again has nothing to do with whether you're fat or thin has it?  Wishing it 'well' is a sizeless need. Do you get what I'm saying?  If 'well' can mean just working properly then why do we say when dieting and trying to be thin that we want our body to be 'well' as well?  Doesn't make sense but it's just been accepted as something people say in relation to health.  You know, we really need to start actually listening to people who want to give health advice and watch what we are listening to.  A lot of the times people repeat something they've read somewhere, unsubstantiated stuff, but because its in print it's repeated as the truth but if your really listen to it it doesn't make any sense at all.

This is how we have the kind of hang ups about our weight and our body that we do.  Really, start to make your own health discoveries.  Learn the science of your own body.  Don't just rely on other people's thoughts on such an important issue to you.  And if people want to be helpful then let them, listen politely but do check your 'sense-o-metre'.  Work out what they are saying and if doesn't make a whole lot of sense challenge it.  If it stands true under your scrutiny then it's worth you doing the extra research yourself after that before you follow advice or commit to something like that. Time for us to educate ourselves coz guess what? Sometimes the experts get it wrong!  

I realised this week while I was ill that I really haven't been kind to my body.  Not in the way you imagine which is by not feeding my body good food and giving it enough exercise but something more terrible than that.  I have criticised and abused my own body with my words and the way I feel about it.  Am I sounding just a little silly to you right now?  Well, I'm not being.  What we say is powerful.  Even to ourselves.  If we speak negativity we inject negativity into ourselves and what is good will 'die' in such an environment.  But if we speak positively then positivity flows through us breathing life throughout our hearts, minds and also our bodies.

I need to start to respect this body.  Irrespective of who else might like to have an opinion about it.  My body is mine.  Like having a child.  Others might think my 'child' if I had one was unattractive but I would only see the beauty in that child like a the mother and I would love it unconditionally.  In a similar way (although not quite the same) I need to embrace, see the beauty in and love my body.  It's mine and no else will love it the same as me.  So I need to learn to love my body.  Unconditionally.  It's weight is irrelevant!  

Bottom line.  I am a plus size person with a bigger body which I need to appreciate and love whatever the size.  This along with my mind and my heart make up who I am and I just wanted everyone to know that there's one thing for sure....

I am not my weight!  I wish people would stop making it about that. I am fat but my life is not centred around just how much fat I have.  What a thing to focus on.  Stop.  Everybody please stop.  Love your body or start to learn too.

Stay beyoutiful  bigYoutifuls!

RayRay xx

PS - A happy happy happy birthday to my one and only niecey.  Mwah! xx